Being a nurse…

My profession as a nurse is becoming more and more challenging, at least where I’m at. By the way, this is just my opinion. I’m sure a lot of nurses has different experience than mine. A lot of nurses hate their jobs. Others totally love it. I’m somewhat in between.

I currently work at a nursing home/assisted living setting. I’m working nights and it is very laid back. I don’t even give meds. I only give meds on an as needed basis. My main duty really is to make sure that residents are being kept dry and clean. Sometimes I work with one nurse’s aide, sometimes there’s two of them. I make sure that laundry is done and med cart is well stocked.

One night, I brought my 7-year-old with me and he had a glimpse of my job as a nurse. When he saw the wandering residents with wet diapers and didn’t know what to do, without hesitation he asked me:

“Why don’t you change job mom?” I said why. Instead of answering, he made a statement that left me thinking. He said:

“I wouldn’t want to be a nurse.” Then he took off and went back to the nurse’s station.

My son is very intelligent. He is a grown up in a child’s body. I understand why he said what he said. There’s a part of my job that is disgusting. And changing wet diapers and cleaning BM are just two examples.

Yeah some of you might say, oh how could you say that? It’s an honorable job. You’re helping people blah blah blah. You know what, for those people who would tell me that, you are right. Being a nurse or a nurse’s aide is an honorable job. Especially if you love helping people. But I am also being realistic here. I’m not a hypocrite. Especially my son. He sees the reality of it and it is what it is.

Changing diapers and cleaning BM get old quick. I personally don’t understand why a lot of people can do it for years. I’ve heard people say that they will not be doing this kind of job no matter how much they get paid. I respect those people. They know what they want.

Changing dipes and cleaning BMs are actually the least stressful aspect of being a nurse. Well it depends where you work. But all I know is that everywhere you work, every nurse is always trying to cover their you know what in order to protect their licenses. I hate that you can’t do this or that because you might lose your license. I hate that people above you use it as a blackmail to make you do what they want you to do.

And this, I’m sure every nurse can relate to this. I have never seen a profession where accountability is only imposed on certain people. It’s always the nurses’ fault y’all! If the doctor made an error on his orders and the nurse did not catch it, it’s the nurse’s fault. If pharmacy did not catch the med error of the doctor, it’s the nurse’s fault. If the nurse’s aide did not do what they are supposed to do, it’s the nurse’s fault. Really???

Anyway, it’s ridiculous. Being a nurse is not a glamorous job no matter how compassionate you are or how much you love what you do. At some point in your career, you will encounter something that will make you question your decision on why you chose that profession.

Like for instance, the other night, we were changing this resident’s diaper because it had feces and it was smeared all over the bed. While we were changing him, he spat on me and on the nurse’s aide who was working with me. That was so disgusting. I was shocked and did not know what to do. This is when taking care of dementia patient will test your faith because you literally would not know how to react. Would you get mad? You know you will. But you can’t do anything about it because they have dementia. They don’t know what they’re doing. Of course.

This incident is my light bulb moment. This is when I finally made a decision of what I truly want to do in life. Yes, I am compassionate and I love helping people. But I also know that somehow somewhere there are many different ways that I can express my compassion towards other. I know I can help people other than being a nurse. And I am finding that way. I am doing whatever it takes and paying however much just to get there. My plan is in action 🙂

For those nurses who are out there helping people and dealing with the stress, you have all my respect. To the nurse’s aides who loves what they do, I do respect you also.


Alright that’s all for now.





Pink Lemonade Soap

As I continue my growing desire to create homemade soap and use whatever ingredients available, I created something that turned out quite nice. I also just want to mention that the night before I created this next homemade soap, I left my crockpot on with melted goat’s milk in it. It turned brown the next day. I didn’t want to throw it away because I refuse to waste precious ingredients so I decided to stir it and pour it in the mold. I told myself that I was just going to use it for myself.

I thought about what would look good with light brown and fortunately I have a pink mica powder. I decided to melt glycerin soap base and mix it with pink mica powder. I also added lemon essential oils because that was the first essential oil I grabbed. Then I added more layers of goat’s milk soap and glycerin soap mixed with lemon essential oil.  To my surprise, it turned out lovely! I’m loving the pink color and the lemon scent! And that’s why I named it Pink Lemonade.

As soon as I forwarded the pictures of the finished products to my friends, I started receiving orders. It’s $7 per bar. Now, I only have one bar left to sell. I did well! I might just keep the last bar for myself and have it for display. 🙂



Another crazy healthy thing I do

I love moisturizers and all kinds of body products. Anyone who knows me personally is aware of this, particularly my love for moisturizer. I have moisturizers in every corner of my house, in my bedroom, bathroom, couch, and even in my kitchen. I just love that soft and smooth feeling on my skin. I used to be very particular in the texture and brand of the moisturizer that I buy.

When I went to nursing school, I learned that the skin has pores that can absorb whatever we apply on it and it gets in our bloodstream. We have medications that we apply on the skin such as ointment and creams, and also patches like nicotine patches, nitro patches, and so much more. Back then, it didn’t occur to me that whatever I put on my skin gets absorbed. I don’t know why, I guess I was just blind. Nobody questioned it, therefore who am I to question it?

I became curious when I started doing research on how to live healthy the natural way. Just like what every person who have done their research, I looked at the back of every moisturizers I had and read the ingredients. All of them have chemicals that I didn’t know what. They’re just hard to pronounce and hard to read. And I was putting it on my body? I was shocked. I almost felt like I was lied to. Now, it just makes sense to me to not put anything on my skin unless I can eat it.

So, right there and then, I threw away all of my moisturizers, makeups, deodorants, and everything else that has chemicals including soap and house cleaning stuff. I immediately switched to using natural products like coconut oil, essential oils and baking soda. I decided that if I am going to put something on my skin, I have to be able to eat it too. If I can’t eat it, I won’t apply it on my skin.

I started making my own moisturizer and I’m so excited about it! Its way better than the moisturizers that I used to buy. It’s chemical free. And it’s very liberating to be able to make my very own. And I would be glad to share it with everyone who doesn’t know this yet.

My base ingredients are coconut oil, cacao butter and shea butter. You can buy this from amazon or at the health food store. Melt them all together in a double boiler. Put it in the freezer for like 15 minutes or until it hardened. And then use an electric handheld mixer to whip it. I’m telling you it looks like a whipped cream that you see on your cake and it smells so good. From those ingredients you can add different essential oils like sweet orange, or maybe add a few drops of vanilla essence before you whip them. You’re going to smell delicious. It’s so good that once you do this, you will never buy anymore moisturizer.

Another thing that I want to share with everyone is that I don’t use deodorant anymore. Wait, what??? Yep. I ditched the deodorant a long time ago. And guess what, I don’t stink at all. Well, most of the time. Why did I do that? Here’s why.

Have you ever noticed the high rate of breast cancer nowadays? It’s so common that you probably know someone close to you who has it or who had it. It’s a very scary thing. Once you see a lump on your breast, you go see a doctor, and you get your diagnosis. Then your doctor will tell you that you could die from it if you don’t get rid of it right away.  So, hurry up and get a biopsy and get it out, do chemo and radiation.

So here’s why I don’t use deodorant anymore. Armpits and groin area, we have different sweat glands called apocrine glands and they excrete the “stinky” type of sweat. Some people produce strong smell while others produce mild depending on your stress level. That stinky sweat are the toxins your body is trying to get rid off. You should not stop that process by putting deodorant or antiperspirant. If you do, then you would stop the toxins from coming out, and on top of that, you will be adding toxic chemicals in your body through your armpits. Those blocked toxins and the toxins from the deodorant can block your sweat glands and back up to the lymph node and they will accumulate there. And it turns into a lump. You don’t have to believe me. Just do your own research.

When I was a teenager, I was told that my armpits stink and that I needed to use deodorant. And I was so embarrassed that it became a part of my personal hygiene. If I was running out of deodorant, I would stress out. Little did I know that having that stinky sweat from my armpits is actually helpful for my body. Had I known that back then, I would probably just let my armpits sweat and stink and care less about it.

Now, are you surprised why we have a high rate of breast cancers? I mean, it’s not just the deodorant that causes it. I’m totally convinced that the food that we eat, our emotions, the medications that most of us take, the stressful lifestyle that we have, has a lot to do with it. But one thing for sure, if there’s anything I can do to prevent me from having breast cancer, I will do it. And that is not using any toxic deodorant.

Nowadays, we are so “hygienic” and germophobes (someone who is very scared of germs) that we even have sanitizers. If you stink or don’t wash your hands, you’re considered nasty. I know this because I used to believe that way too. I was crazy about “being clean” and washing my hands all the time. I really thought it was a good thing. Well, not anymore. I have been hearing from functional medicine doctors that bacteria is good for us. The more diverse your microbiome is, the more healthier you are. But that’s another topic in itself which I will share with you all soon.

So, what do I use now as a substitue? I use my homemade moisturizers all over my body including my armpits. From time to time, I would put diluted essential oils if I want to have fragrance, like lavender, jasmine or ylang ylang. And that’s it, really.

I can understand how scary it is at first. But if you are brave enough to try it like me, you’ll know what I mean 🙂


Much love,