Being a nurse…

My profession as a nurse is becoming more and more challenging, at least where I’m at. By the way, this is just my opinion. I’m sure a lot of nurses has different experience than mine. A lot of nurses hate their jobs. Others totally love it. I’m somewhat in between.

I currently work at a nursing home/assisted living setting. I’m working nights and it is very laid back. I don’t even give meds. I only give meds on an as needed basis. My main duty really is to make sure that residents are being kept dry and clean. Sometimes I work with one nurse’s aide, sometimes there’s two of them. I make sure that laundry is done and med cart is well stocked.

One night, I brought my 7-year-old with me and he had a glimpse of my job as a nurse. When he saw the wandering residents with wet diapers and didn’t know what to do, without hesitation he asked me:

“Why don’t you change job mom?” I said why. Instead of answering, he made a statement that left me thinking. He said:

“I wouldn’t want to be a nurse.” Then he took off and went back to the nurse’s station.

My son is very intelligent. He is a grown up in a child’s body. I understand why he said what he said. There’s a part of my job that is disgusting. And changing wet diapers and cleaning BM are just two examples.

Yeah some of you might say, oh how could you say that? It’s an honorable job. You’re helping people blah blah blah. You know what, for those people who would tell me that, you are right. Being a nurse or a nurse’s aide is an honorable job. Especially if you love helping people. But I am also being realistic here. I’m not a hypocrite. Especially my son. He sees the reality of it and it is what it is.

Changing diapers and cleaning BM get old quick. I personally don’t understand why a lot of people can do it for years. I’ve heard people say that they will not be doing this kind of job no matter how much they get paid. I respect those people. They know what they want.

Changing dipes and cleaning BMs are actually the least stressful aspect of being a nurse. Well it depends where you work. But all I know is that everywhere you work, every nurse is always trying to cover their you know what in order to protect their licenses. I hate that you can’t do this or that because you might lose your license. I hate that people above you use it as a blackmail to make you do what they want you to do.

And this, I’m sure every nurse can relate to this. I have never seen a profession where accountability is only imposed on certain people. It’s always the nurses’ fault y’all! If the doctor made an error on his orders and the nurse did not catch it, it’s the nurse’s fault. If pharmacy did not catch the med error of the doctor, it’s the nurse’s fault. If the nurse’s aide did not do what they are supposed to do, it’s the nurse’s fault. Really???

Anyway, it’s ridiculous. Being a nurse is not a glamorous job no matter how compassionate you are or how much you love what you do. At some point in your career, you will encounter something that will make you question your decision on why you chose that profession.

Like for instance, the other night, we were changing this resident’s diaper because it had feces and it was smeared all over the bed. While we were changing him, he spat on me and on the nurse’s aide who was working with me. That was so disgusting. I was shocked and did not know what to do. This is when taking care of dementia patient will test your faith because you literally would not know how to react. Would you get mad? You know you will. But you can’t do anything about it because they have dementia. They don’t know what they’re doing. Of course.

This incident is my light bulb moment. This is when I finally made a decision of what I truly want to do in life. Yes, I am compassionate and I love helping people. But I also know that somehow somewhere there are many different ways that I can express my compassion towards other. I know I can help people other than being a nurse. And I am finding that way. I am doing whatever it takes and paying however much just to get there. My plan is in action 🙂

For those nurses who are out there helping people and dealing with the stress, you have all my respect. To the nurse’s aides who loves what they do, I do respect you also.


Alright that’s all for now.





Me, working nights, it’s consequences, and what I am doing with it.

Two days ago, I restarted my workout routine. I have been feeling sluggish recently due to working nights. My body is not used to it. What’s worse is that my mind is conditioned that working nights is bad for health, and I had difficulty convincing myself that I will be alright.

Anyway, let me just say that I gained 10 pounds within 2 months of working nights. I went from 115 pounds to 125 pounds which is not acceptable at all! At least not within 2 months! Good Lord. Being awake at night made me want to eat. Whenever I get off work, I would be hungry, then I’ll eat, then I’ll go sleep. Then I would wake up after 4 hours and try to sleep again. Then I would have difficulty sleeping again. I would just be awake in bed, tired, sleepy and lazy. No energy. And what’s worse? I’ll be hungry and would be eating! Anybody felt this way before? I’m sure some of you can relate.

This routine is totally against my health principles. I suffered the consequences of night shift. It was and still is very challenging. I would say that this is the perfect time to find a mentor, motivator, friend, workout buddy, or anybody that can help you not get frustrated with night shift and it’s health consequences.

So, with that being said, let me share with you all what I’ve been doing recently. Like what I said in the beginning, I restarted my workout routine and I am quite sore right now. I started using this product called Sweet Sweat, which definitely helps me sweat while working out. I’m using my 15 lb and 20 lb kettle bells. I’ll be posting before and after photo of myself in the future. My goal is to replace the belly fat and thigh fat that I accumulated while working nights, with toned muscles.


I can’t really say much about this product yet since I just started using it, but based on my two days of using it, I am sweating like crazy while working out. I know part of it is placebo which is great. It definitely helps my mind think that this is working. Even though it is too early to say, I already know that this product is going to help me. I can already see myself with my toned body and ready for the beach 🙂  I’ll be posting my pictures soon. Not necessarily a before and after pics since I didn’t take pictures of myself before I restarted this workout routine. Just the after. And just to let you know, I don’t really have a toned body. I was 115 pounds but not toned.

I have also been listening to brain wave binaural beats which is a great way to get into deep sleep state and wake up refreshed. I’ll talk about this in another post.Then I also started reading a lot. I read before I sleep, which helps me get really really sleepy in the morning. Journaling helps as well. Meditation is also great in terms of conditioning my mind into accepting the fact that I am working nights and it is what it is. Accept it and don’t fall victim. Meditation is definitely a great tool.  This is something I have been doing more and more which helps a lot.

Anyway friends, that’s all for now. I’ll be back soon 🙂


Love you all!